You Don’t Understand; I Don’t Understand; We Don’t Know What it’s Like. . .

You Don’t Understand; I Don’t Understand. . . .

I met her when I had something to share besides just ideas. So we got together and lived a somewhat normal life for around 8 months until the money ran out and she moved on. Along the way, I learned about how it was to live in constant chronic unrelenting pain. She had broken her ankle, been raped five times, twice by cops (I prevented another one), and also had been beaten up and tortured at age 19 by a psycho (and there is no other explanation; I know now). Under Bush-Raygun, the access to effective pain medication and consequent pain management was severely restricted as one more component of the emerging diabolical torture/mass murder state established back then by the worst of the republican leadership. I ran this one woman to three different hospitals looking for effective pain medication; we finally found it at the last hospital and it took half a day to do so under the regime. Being a pain doctor under the regime became almost impossible because of the ubiquitous systemic repression, especially one using cannabis for pain management ( Do the research; pain and psychic stress (PTSD) can literally be real killers.
So she had both serious physical and psychic pain, and guess what? Most of the pills prescribed didn’t work at alleviating either area of almost killing pain so off we would go to the source for the cocaine that did. And let me tell you, under the regime it was expensive and that was the idea. But that’s what worked and nothing else did, so off we went. Another person I knew seriously injured on the job used methamphetamine for the pain because it was cheaper than the cocaine and it also worked when nothing else did. See how the toxic brew of budget cut policy ends up killing people before their time one way or another? And that was the motivation for the new nazism of the drug war. It is a war on people, poor people and anyone else thinking outside of the profiteering box Bush-Kissinger-Gingrich-Clinton made for all of the rest of us to die in one way or another. Then I run into another article in the New York Times about how it was that reversing addiction involves supporting the parts of the brain that are involved in loving people, and that several over-the-counter medications may reduce the human capacity for empathy, as in understanding the other, like regular Islamics or jews, or people of color or anyone weird, different, or disabled/simple-minded-The Horror. Weird. As one’s awareness narrows, the less likely one will understand another’s plight and respond to it appropriately.
That must be why it was that they hated cannabis so very much. A person could transcend their mindset and see the world and their lives in a new way, a way better than a narrow-minded fascist would want us to be. Then it would blunt a person’s perceptions so that pain didn’t matter near as much, so a job could be completed that maybe those same fascists didn’t want us to do or live a life that they didn’t want us to live. Just what a street protester would want for those really hard nights facing off with another set of militarized warrior cops unleashed by the usual suspects out there. So getting rid of the pain medication is real, real important if you are seeking to repress a democratizing potential in a hostile fascist context. And further, it would serve to also make sure that people being fully aware of the threats in their environment would not try and “make trouble” for the leaders on top of the ever-more deteriorating socioeconomic status quo.
So the combination of both over-medication as an avenue of sedating and/or eliminating independent, empowered lower middle class people and the withholding of medication for poor people would be a great way to eliminate those pesky middle and lower class people, by either killing them or imprisoning them or doping them up for whatever they could make up so the elites and the upper class millionaire elite wannabes could get over on the rest of us. And that’s one more way that Bush, Killary, Kissinger, Gingrich-Gramm, and McCain and the rest of those mass murdering nutjobs intend up eliminating the competition, the rest of us; by labeling them criminally drug addicted homeless people and imprisoning them or shooting them up just like they do in Colombia. They fabricated up charges and labeled me a social revolutionary, creating a whole fabricated violent second persona on the police reports and they will target and label you too. They call it pre-emptive counterinsurgency, but really it’s just subversive fascist insurgency, plain and simple whose final outcome is unforeseen and unwanted by even the architects of the policies.                                     Lyle Courtsal  July 18, 2016


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Lyle Courtsal is a disabled author/activist who has worked variously as a school bus driver, tree planter, truck driver, and shipyard laborer. He has also attended three colleges, but prefers studying on his own. During the past several years, he has developed a street outreach method for getting intensively self-poisoned, dually-diagnosed addict/alcoholics off the streets and into truly helpful hands while maintaining constitutional standards of non-discrimination and privacy. His technique has an 80 percent success rate. Lyle likes really big, old, live trees; Frisbees; sailing; mid-70s long nose Kenworths going really fast; hardcore rock; true decency; generosity of spirit; and freedom. He presently more-or-less exists in Seattle, Washington. He goes to church at least once a month whether he needs it or not. Check out the book-Enjoy!!

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